So in my last blog post...

... I stated that I'm stressed because lots going on.

One thing, I can't divulge, but I can say this much. I am having to fight for everything and just don't have the energy for it. They will end up winning.

Over the last few months, I've been having more issues with my hip. In July I was told by my specialist that I have wear and tear on my hip (otherwise known as osteoarthritis) and so will eventually need a hip replacement. Whilst at the moment, I am not on a waiting list for surgery, I am being told to manage the pain and maintain the wear and tear as long as possible. It is, yet another fight, that I may not have the energy to fight.

My mum is poorly again, and will need more surgery... Next Thursday

I start a uni course next week... More energy used, although I genuinely believe that this will be worth it.

I'm sorry I'm not my usual, positive, self, I'm just sick of fighting. You can't ride a wave with a broken ship. And my ship has a small hole which is letting water in.

Fatigue and Pre existing disabilities

This post is probably more of a rant because I'm having bad anxiety at the moment, but it does have some truth in it.

Since about February last year, I have had increased muscle pain and a lot of fatigue and exhaustion. Whilst I agree that some of the fatigue is due to stress (there is a lot of things going on in life at the moment, I will write them in a separate post), I just can't believe that all of it is down to stress.

I went to the Drs months ago, and got some blood tests which included tests for anemia, but all came back normal so I was back to square one. After mentioning it to my Neurologist, I was told that it was down to partly stress and partly due to my disabilities (Hemiplegia and Hip Dysplasia. The main reason I don't agree with this is because it only started in January, whereas my Hemiplegia has been lifelong and my Hip Dysplasia since 2005. 

It is therefore my opinion that medical professionals don't feel comfortable diagnosing you with a new condition if they can justify it within your pre-existing condition. If I am way off the mark, please do let me know, but also please tell me what I have to do to get taken seriously instead of fobbed off at every appointment.